Waiting for the one you truly love

Summer spring autum
Waiting all these seasons
For the one you truly love
Winter nights summer days
The dismal of your absence
The soreness in my broken heart
A hopless dream
Waiting days and night
For the one you truly love
Tickling clock, closed door
The sweet and bitter love
Will wait through the cold lonely nights

Fake

Lock your emotions in box

throw it in the sea

dont feel this world is so full of faknness around

finding a friend is impossible stabbing knives

turning backs

hurts the most when your hit by an arrow thrown at you by someone you trust blindly

Dont believe when he tells you that he will never leave, that he will never get fed up by you, that he will never hurt you

Dont believe his promises or words cause when its shatters it hurts the most

BROKEN

so thin like a thread

broken with a storm

how long can it last ?

the love between me and you

weak like a wood

burned with fire

ashes left behind

flying in the sky

at least they got freedom

the story of our turned into regrets

the loud screams,anger,hatred

shattering the glass castle

which took a hundred years to be made

trust ,romance,passion were essence of what we shared called love

whats left are scars on souls

words turned into arguments

arguments turned into fights

were we meant to be like this ?

we were meant to be one soul

so broken am I

can love hurt this much

love gone hatred left

broken yet alive

breaking everything we shared into a memory

Heroine

Heroine is bad for the body it destroys you but still can not leave it, thats you for me. Your not good for me but I cann’t leave you. Like an heroine addict I am addicted to you.

Everyday the addict promises to leave it with just for day… And with that he never stops… I do the same just for today will say “hi” ask “how is he doing ” ,I know he is always good, god gave him everything one can desire. Its just an excuse for me to talk to you. Taking every insult thrown at me that’s my punishment for loving you.

Sometimes I wonder just like heroine can find anyone but the heroine addict cant let go, you can find and have anyone, you have the most amazing and beautiful people around you but for me its only YOU

Sounds too romantic right, ignore it thats how I am have been these days….

Got it

“Can you give me your number ” said A

No we are talking here so its fine here ” said B

Silence….

Then after a while “ok”

replied A

(Seen)

Sometime went by another text

“what do I lack ” said A

After a long wait replied B

“Nothing your perfect ”

“stop lying ” replied A

(there must be something wrong with me or why else would you not. Want me but rather use me to your needs)

“I said nothing ” replied B

“No one is perfect tell me I will not blame you, I promise. Replied A

“stop it are you ,crazy you and I are not meant for each other you will find someone whose for you

“GOT IT ”

(her heart shattered a thosand pieces she wanted to die she asked god to kill her, rejection. Got it but find someone else put the needles the most rejectes in. The most horrible. Ways possible when you. Have been Together for an year )

Yes I got it sir

Kill my. Heart for falling for. You

Kill my Soul for loving you

Or give me Amnesia

The endless road

If forgetting you was so easy can it be called love .

The endless painful road where you travel alone, you tell me

“not to depend on your absence or presence “

I wish the same as it will set me free from the pain of waiting for the impossible.

Ending the nights I spend in your thoughts .

The day dreams about you.

I forgot myself making myself avaible at your door 24/7 my priority was you .

For you I always had time but for you, you didnt had a second in 24 hours for me saying “you busy”.

How can someone be busy 24 hours..

When excuses start to begin in any relation thats the end of it thats when its ended unofficially.

That’s the root of the beginning cause after that your left alone on the road .

My soul needs you to breath , my lips keeps craving your lips,my mind keeps replying the memories of us…….

Now what am I supposed to do I can express my feeling but I can’t make you care .

Now even my emotions are a burden to your mighty self your so great ,so happy ,without me .

I wish there was a pill of happiness

A pill of amnesia ,where I can erase all of you and be happy forever.

what I didn’t had or was not pretty enough .

what was wrong with me?

why did you left me behind ?

Now I can’t even see you on this road you have gone gone so far my love so far my hands left empty with this heart ache in my heart, carrying my baggage of stuff I start to walk alone on this road I don’t know where would it lead me from here…………… What do you think where would it lead me ???

Freedom

You gave me freedom from the shackeles I never wanted to be unlocked

my heart and soul was chained to you, you set me free to roam around to taste different lips to touch differnt bodies you set me free by ending the one sided love I may have loved you I may have hated you I can tell you how I feel but I can’t make you care How hopless a human is that he Can’t even change the heart nor force his feelings……..