BROKEN

so thin like a thread

broken with a storm

how long can it last ?

the love between me and you

weak like a wood

burned with fire

ashes left behind

flying in the sky

at least they got freedom

the story of our turned into regrets

the loud screams,anger,hatred

shattering the glass castle

which took a hundred years to be made

trust ,romance,passion were essence of what we shared called love

whats left are scars on souls

words turned into arguments

arguments turned into fights

were we meant to be like this ?

we were meant to be one soul

so broken am I

can love hurt this much

love gone hatred left

broken yet alive

breaking everything we shared into a memory

I should just die…

Tick tok, tick tok

the demons are back

been holding for long

everynight crying myself to sleep the thoughts are back, why am I even alive??

Been holding for long

Pounding heart, breathing hard

to feel like dying but not dying

oh! Just wanted one true love why would you scar me?

Depression, anxiety,self harm are back.

How can they leave me, peacful mind just a dream ,now eyes wide open

Don’t want anyone to know

You made me feel so worthless, ugly, stupid, dumb

Everything my fault, loving you my fault, you say so should I die yea if I die its still my fault isn’t it

Claps to you finally you took a human’s wish to live turn into dead wish

Runaway

Sometimes you wanna runaway into a world of far far away away

from the people the troubles will you come by?

Grab my hand and runaway with me into a world of wilds

come take my hand lets leave

my insides feel like breaking

I am shattering

the demons are coming back

my insecurites fears are back

the old me is back where living is hell and death is relieve expectations hurts so bad

as you grow old you get more and more hurt

lets runaway

I want amnesia

I am full of imperfections

a past full of aches wounds have been through heartbreak, rejections, cheats, betrayal, hatred, oh my my why I feel so worthless, ugly, useless why am I even alive….

a beauty with a demon

a beauty with scars

I can be with anyone just so I dont feel like killing myself

One sided love

He is not the one

I depend on anymore

He is not the one

I trust anymore

He is not the one

I call in need anymore

He is not the one

in my dreams anymore

He is not the one

I want anymore

He is not the man of my dreams anymore

just a man who I once treasured more than diamonds

so a scar he has left when I considered him my world but when you can get something easily you never care .

when ever I look at you a pain in my chest rises and I look away as you never know what I felt for you and you never cared enough for me so I know you never loved me

HAVE BEEN HERE SINCE 14

have been here since 14

but never been so strong

fighting all my demons

these wounds don’t heal

these scars on my arms

are the proof of my battle’s

on lonely nights

fought for so long

have been here since 14

but never been so strong

standing on this island surrounded by water

all alone

breathing but barely living

the angel of dead stalking around

messing the minds of a teenager

into doing the unforgivable

have been here since 14

but never been so strong

for judging me ,walk in my shoes first

I swear not even a day, you will survive

the stormy cold nights

sobbing and hating

the failures and bullying

my world this gloomy

have been this way since 14

stronger than everyone

not a victim but a survivor

battling these wars made me iron women

stronger than anyone

never giving up

rising from ashes my super powers

have been here since 14

but never been so strong

REPLACED

you stalk and chase

  like I meant the world to you

making vows and promises

for loving me forever

you start to attract me

style,manliness and boldness you got

 with these muscles you made

making me lose my mind

you start to take over me

make a place in my heart

my body ,soul and mind

are in complete possession of you

and

then suddenly you feel something wrong

  nothing seems right for you

after so much effort

making me yours but not made my

your mission ends ,another starts

to have another innocent heart  with your deadly charms

replacing is what you do

love is just a hobby for you

these false , empty vows are made only to break 

cause that’s what you do

”PLAY BOY ”

TRAPPED

She is laying on a cold floor .

Which is all wet and the girl is just lying there with water dripping on her face drop by drop , the room has a roof but it could not prevent the big monsters like clouds from raining and slowly it will make her body numb there is no one to save her from the hell.

When it becomes hard for her to even breath she begs for death but so cruel,  she finds a beat after every drowning.

As there is this line between life and death so does there is line between fear and reality ,love and abandonment, understanding and hurt.

So the girl runs away finding a  hole, she is away from sinking deep but that hole does not lead to success cause success is after when she swims on her own from the sea of water ,that hole keeps her safe for a while but she wants to explore what lies outside the hole and water torture but scared she may feel drowning again , she stays in the hole all alone wasting her life.

The crabs in it does not even make her afraid they bite her, but do she scream?

Nope it calms her the blood makes her feel alive,  cause death people do not bleed nor feel pain so she she asks them to bite her to make her fears anxiety, sadness ,guilt, hatred go away making the crab her best friend, her only friend cause his actions speak louder and no words makes her safe.

SAD URDU POETRY

ye na samjho ka hamey tum se muhabat nahi      do not think i don’t love you

humey tu adat ha khamosh rahney ki                     I just have a habit to be silent

 

 

me ne tarap kar bola buhat yad atey hu tum         with anxiousness i said i miss you a lot

wo muskura kar bola aur tumhey ata he kya ha    you smiled and said what else can                                                                                             I do

 

 

log kahtey he mera dil pathar ka ha

kuch log aisey bhe they jo ausey bhe tor kar chaley gaye

people say my heart is of stone

there were some people that even broke that and went by

 

 

hey guys these are some of urdu romantic poetry i liked  my first time writing  about it so do not know what the response will be but tried my best , i may have made mistakes sorry for that and i hope you like it