BROKEN

so thin like a thread

broken with a storm

how long can it last ?

the love between me and you

weak like a wood

burned with fire

ashes left behind

flying in the sky

at least they got freedom

the story of our turned into regrets

the loud screams,anger,hatred

shattering the glass castle

which took a hundred years to be made

trust ,romance,passion were essence of what we shared called love

whats left are scars on souls

words turned into arguments

arguments turned into fights

were we meant to be like this ?

we were meant to be one soul

so broken am I

can love hurt this much

love gone hatred left

broken yet alive

breaking everything we shared into a memory

Guilty

What more can I do

erased everything

left my pains behind

trying to love you back

but am I selfish for wanting it

or are you selfish for breaking it

your eyes are cold

your heart is stone

a demons resides within your soul

your thirsty for my blood

and I am guilty for this chocolate heart

Friendship or Love

What should you choose in life ? Should you leave your best friends the ones that stood with you in thick and thin or should you treasure your lover cause he is jealous of your male friends ? Have you ever encountered jealous girlfriends or jealous boyfriends and if yes how will you handle it , some people will leave there 10 year old friendship for the sake of there boyfriend . Is that fair to the friend who stood with you in your good or bad days

CHILDHOOD

gone is the time

when we used to play

regardless of the thoughts

we had in head

used to fight but forgot in seconds

gone is the time

when we loved insane

played beside trees

ran in gardens

laughing and playing  making the neighbors complain

gone is the time

when no ego existed

used to play like we owned the world around

childhood once the best time

a journey of no hurt or betrayal

made of innocence and cuteness

gone is the time when childhood existed

now its life of an adult with tilted back

GROW OLD TOGETHER

Putting my head on your bare chest is my deepest desire and gaze at the stars together till we get old.Our hair turn white and its still the same you love me.

The same when we first met on the school entrance,you holding your mother’s hand crying and I being so happy for the first time going to  school  that  I give you my chocolate which I never  shared before  that was when we were so young  .

Time went by so fast , we became teenagers  had fights and patch ups long were the nights and short were the days cause the nights surrounded you making it so magical .

Do you remember ,we used to watch stars together.

Do you still remember  you said your love will never change and it will remain like a frozen mountain but mountains melt , roses wither people get old, life ends and the universe changes .

I believed your love was unchangeable and I was so dumb to believe we will get old together.

Walking down the alley with holding hands people whispering “wow! what cool old love birds” .

I thought our love will write history .

People remembering it for  ages to come .

Then i woke up it was a dream, reality is just gloomy

TIME CHANGES

this song so much is relatable  to my true story , so listen to it as well

friendship to love

and then

from  love to heartbreak

all of it happened so soon

that the time spent with you seemed

so short

and

the fights seemed so long

but

there remain one thing which never changed

and that was my love for you

so strong

like an ice berg

and

then you broke me

into a thousand pieces with leaving me alone

that it was so hard to live

and

move on ,

the relation from friendship,love and break up quickly turned into something called hatred,revenge ,

hating you was easy then revenge

cause seeing you hurt was like me hurt

but continued to hate you

for what you did to me ,blamed you ,resented you ,tried to do friendship ,still cared for your wounds

the heart ached for you ,

but then when everything failed ,

every effort was thrown into the bin,

when there was no going back to what we were,

no matter how hard i tried it could not be normal relation,

there i stopped trying ,stopped calling,texting,being a nuisance,

but stopping everything did not mean my heart stopped loving ,

when there was rain i would write your name on my car window ,

remembering you , every love , every couple will remind me of you,

the nights were for crying in the name of you ,

the days were for laying in bed restless ,

but

realized one thing my worth in your life it was lower than your dog ,

but your worth in my life was more than family,money,things etc that was the difference between my love and your love it was not equal ,

you did not cared if i existed or not  so

even if you had stayed it would not last long ,

with passing times as its said time heals every wound ,

so was my healed ,

the broken me was still broken

the trust on love is not here but there is one thing that happened

i forgive him, its not his fault ,

its was not meant to be,

it was a life lesson ,

making me strong, making me brave,and above all of it changed me ,

not the old me who gets attached to people ,

cry for them ,

beg them to stay ,

if someone wants to leave ,

i will let them go even open the door for them

cause if someone really wants to stay

they will stay not threaten to leave or even leave ,

if someone is going to love me , he should love me as me,

with every flaw and every goodness ,

not try to change what i am,

even if i am cold heart, unkind,selfish , that’s what i am , no need to tell me what i am cause

i know me better than you 

but if you think i am good person

its your opinion good and bad are just like this

a line between both of them

and

i am not perfect , i may act immature,want love,cry but it does not make you weak it just shows how strong you have and how strong your going to be